Fortis Fortuna Adiuvat

 October 2020, during the pandemic, I graduated from Univ. 

I finally finish my parents long time investment with average GPA hahaha. So, this shit post will kinda look like an introspective letter from me to myself.

2015 was a very special year in my life calendar, I finally graduate school and ready to carry Canisius College gigantic reputation on my back. I was mentally strong, expressive, and reckless as ever. Things are just fine, my friends are going to different direction, Netherland, Australia, Japan, and Europe. That was one of the best six months adventure (the best one is Highschool years ofc). 

Atma Jaya was my last choice, a private catholic university with great economy reputation national-wide. There is a very exciting fact about my very first moment there: "These wildcards are divided either junkie or nerd" so I chose the more exciting path, junkies. I was once again, reckless. 

And this the very important part....

I was wasting my first 4 semesters, average GPA, hottie chick, drunk, rarely got home, and stoned after stoned. It was the most lustful moment in my life. Ever. 

Until I realize, I was sooooo left behind. There is almost no other way to catch up everyone's pace. 

That was the very moment I try to specialize my skill on something, tax; the thing I am working on today. My life savior (ofc there's God behind it)

All I'm trying to say is, I am very grateful with what I am now. I am grateful for all the process because I learnt it from the best: failure. I was failed to pick myself together after glorious highschool period and I still struggling to get that level back. Or maybe I evolve, apart from all expectation that kills everyone, dodge the powerful backfire from gigantic highschool background.

I am not saying that I am fine but after all mess, I see the light. There is a time when I was feel drawn and run away from feeling we did not want to, I swear, is the worst nightmare ever.

Today I still hate the way my life inverted. But I learnt to live with the memory of my worst period, the lustful one, or the glorious one. I love to say that beside all memories, I have faith.

"Fortis Fortuna Adiuvat"