I Prepared Myself.

i prepared myself. i prepared myself for you to walk away. i prepared myself for you to leave. i prepared myself for heartbreak. i prepared myself for what it'd feel like when you didn't text me.

i prepared myself for the feeling i'd get when seeing you love somebody else. i prepared myself to be able to fake a smile when you asked how i was doing. i prepared myself to pick up the pieces of my heart without your help. i prepared myself, and yet, here i am, curled up on the bedroom floor, wondering what i could've done to make you stay.