2019

you've spend your whole life worrying about being alone that you've let so many good people pass you by. the same way you've spent so much time thinking of those who don't care ratjer than the one who do. and this is what your life has turned into. chasing people who don't understand you while overlooking the ones who relate you the most. 

you've let so much time slip, you've let too many people slip, and now you're slipping yourself; by chasing people who've caused you the most harm. when does it end? when do you finaly realize who you are? who you deserve?

the brokenness; the emptiness and the longing of being understood-of being held by the right hands. you feel like the ocean; the rain; but tat doesn't mean you've got drown on your own. with water comes life. and with pain comes love. so, hanging there, life isn' meant to destroy you. people aren't meant to hurt you and all the things you feel aren't meant to bring you closer to your doom. because everything around you is a lesson waiting to be learned, and how you let them affect you is completely up to you. cry now and laugh later, it's okay. because something better is on the way.