Thank You For Loving Me.

I am sorry. I’m sorry if I can’t give you the attention, the care, the love you are craving for. I tried, I swear I tried, but there’s just something that can’t make you stay with me any much longer, for I know that if I did, it will ruin you. I’m sorry if I unintentionally gave you false hopes, if I gave you the idea that we are different, that what we had was different. Trust me, I thought so too. I thought you were my princess in my unending fairytale.

You see the world differently as I see it; I prioritize things, literally things – You prioritize your family, your studies, and your family. It made me sad, it tore me inside, because for once I thought I found my person, but the truth is, I only saw what I wanted to see when I was with you, I ignore every sign, every red flag.

I loved you. I did. And that’s what saddens me most. For I thought I can love you enough not to mind our differences. But I can’t. You are a wonderful person. Please don’t let me take that away from you. You are brave, brave enough to love me despite all these scars I have in me, brave enough to fall in love after all the heartbreaks you’ve been through.

I loved being your friend, your shoulder to lean on. I love it when you tell me all about your problems, or about the things that make you happy. I love it when you’re crying in front of me, telling me you’re scared I may not be able to accept your flaws. You were right… but it was only because I don’t want to change you. I want you change for yourself, not for anybody else. I want you to be a better person for yourself. But see, you don’t find problems with your actions, with the way you’re living your life, but I do.

I want to thank you… for loving me while I can’t seem to find a reason to love myself. I want to thank you for showing me what I missed in life.

You are the closest person to my ideal happiness. Maybe for forever ever after.